I feel deeply saddened. I have been going about life, but feeling the rawness of emotions arising. There seem to be no words. Perhaps that is a blessing, so that I can simply feel. I can feel grief, sadness, uncertainty … Though my faith is being tested, I still have trust in the human heart.
What can we do? What can I do? Perhaps I can pay attention to how I feel, to how and where separation arises in me, where biases take strong hold. I can begin to notice here and now, in widening circles, within marriage, family, friendship, community. Can I honestly recognize where deep and lingering barriers arise in my own heart? Can I find the courage to have uncomfortable conversations with my children, my husband, my family and community?
Fear is so deeply rooted and it crosses many generations. I see this in my own family.
Love is also deeply rooted and in some way what allows us to be here in this moment.
Today I will sit, reflect and feel. I will listen and have conversations at home, with friends, with anybody who is willing. Maybe slowly we can uncover action that feels skillful. Maybe by recognizing our fears, we can gently begin to move into and through them. Maybe we can remember how to honor each other with the dignity we so deserve. This is not something that can be done once and forgotten. In fact, we will likely forget often and so we must take time everyday if we can.
“I consider we are all the same as human beings, mentally, emotionally and physically. In order to ensure a more peaceful world and a healthier environment we sometimes point a finger at others saying they should do this or that. But change must start with us as individuals. If one individual becomes more compassionate it will influence others and so we will change the world.” Dalai Lama