So this week I had an epiphany. I got in the car to drive home from teaching an inspiring class and I was about to pick up the phone to share my experience. But as I had the phone in my hand, I stopped myself. I put the phone down. I decided to be present with that energy and to enjoy the drive home without the need to share my experience immediately. And so I did just that. I took the energy in. I enjoyed a slow mindful drive home, some quiet music playing in the background. I felt moved; moved by the spirit of my students, moved by the music, moved by the beauty of the world around me.
And as I pondered my experience a little more deeply, I realized that though I am able to be (relatively) present when I have a task before me, I often don’t allow for those quiet moments of presence just for myself. My awareness is easily scattered across the various things in the world that vie for my attention. I need to allow for the time to disconnect so that I can connect back to myself, not my kids, not my yoga, not my chores – just me. And though this sounds almost selfish, trust me, giving myself those several minutes on that drive home enabled me to be more grounded through the rest of my day than I otherwise would have been. So I am not talking extremes here. I don’t plan to live a solitary life of a yogi, actually far from it, but I hope to find a little more balance. I hope to take those moments to unplug from world to plug back in to myself, so that when I do re-emerge, I bring a more inspired and grounded energy to share with everyone and everything around me.
“Only when the clamor of the outside world is silenced will you be able to hear the deeper vibration. Listen carefully.” ~ Sarah Ban Breathnach