This past week my husband, affectionately called Herbie, went away for 5 days for a business trip. I didn’t think much of it as I said goodbye early Thursday morning and went off to get on with my day. At some point, I came home before picking up my girls. The house was quiet and calm, which is often not the norm when you have two toddlers running around. I sat down for a few moments to enjoy the silence and I was surprisingly taken by a real genuine feeling of missing Herbie. The sentiment initially confused me as it had hardly been a few hours and he was only going to be gone for five days. I actually thought of his sweet smile and quirky sense of humor and, I kid you not, I felt tears well up in my eyes. Either I was having a hormonal surge or I really hit upon something. What I realized was that within the calm and quiet, I was able to bring my awareness back to the immense gratitude I have for having Herbie in my life. Gratitude that is often lost amidst a busy life with 2 kids, house-hold chores, part-time work, the list goes on. And in the midst of my tears, I felt a smile slowly make its way to my heart. I almost felt a sense of relief to know that after 12 years & 2 kids, I still had a deep sense of gratitude and love for my husband. It’s easy to lose that connection in the harried pace of life. I am under no illusion that there will be no moments of frustration in our future, but I am grateful to have had those few moments of silence in his absence to connect back to that gratitude.
I believe this is the true gift in yoga as it adeptly emulates life. As we get on our mats to work through an often consuming physical practice, we are challenged to find a way to quiet the mind, so that we can connect back to that space of calm within our spirit. And within that calm spirit comes clarity, so that we can connect back to our own truths: truths that can help to set us free from the physical demands of our practice, of our lives and that can bring us back in touch with the intangible gifts we all have been given, but that we sometimes take for granted.
“Abundance is not something we acquire. It is something we tune into.” ~ Wayne Dyer